I dared to love you
And that was my sin
My treasonous act
Of selfish desiring
To keep each moment
Like a random stone
Polished on the shore.
I wanted you fully
Not to see you
Thrive
But to see you
Continue to be my
Only stability –
Carry out my insanity –
Compartmentalized consistency
Always just out of
Fingertips grasp.
And to you it was
Nothing while I held
On by two frayed
Heart strings
And you and she
Mocked me –
The one person who
Could harm me –
Because you had to
Do harm.
You had to prove
That you were
Just like the rest
But worse.
You had to undo
What was only
Half-done at best.
